General Well-Being

A sense of not being "comfortable in my own skin." Probably if I'm not comfortable yet, I never will be. Major problems remain unresolved; anxiety ranges from moderate to strong. I do not know how to live life. The hard, black obdurate core of the personality is pretty much fixed, but the channels of "receptivity' are more open than ever. General health is excellent.

I was inspired by some of Lydia Davis's writing to start a series called "Jonathan at 50." It won't really be similar to her work in any way that's super obvious, but it will have some of the deliberate blandness and descriptive objectivity of some of her stories. As I was reading her stories I just started to think of phrases I would use; whole sections started to write themselves in my head.

Each segment will address some particular aspect of my life and habits. It should be quite dull. I am a dull guy after all.

I am not yet 50. Not even close. I am more than two months away from that milestone, but I thought I'd start now.